Thursday, April 18, 2013

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everyone says that maddox looks so much like me. which is true, he looks nothing like evan and everything like me. which is also weird because he's a boy and i'm a girl and that's maybe what i'd look like if i were a boy? except for that i have a brother and i think that we look nothing alike and so we pretend that he's adopted but maybe if i were a boy i'd look like my maybe-adopted brother, too.

rambling.

his faces, too. this one-eyebrow raise with a wrinkly forehead. i do that. and his hands over his face when he sleeps. i do that. and his stubbornness. already. i do that, too.  and his teeny tiny bladder that just can't hold it for more than five minutes. i do that. and his attitude. and his always & forever hunger. and his love affair with sleep. and his love affair with fighting sleep when he needs it most. and his non-hitchhiker thumbs. and his deep blue eyes. and his dark hair. his dark skin. his nose. his lips. his dimple.

mine. mine. mine.


it's weird seeing yourself in another person. wondering what qualities he'll get from me and which ones he'll get from evan. i could make a list of all the things i hope he passes on, my quick anger and road rage and defensiveness and fear of confrontation and shyness and the things that i hope he clings to from evan, his smile and ability to sing and desire to help and selflessness and protectiveness and ability to love and level head. and you have this child and you see the things in you that you hate and you slowly start to better yourself, like forgiving quicker and removing negativity and being patient and trying to not be annoyed by the people who don't use their blinkers as long as they don't drive like a crazytown around you and your baby. and you want to be the best you that you can be so this baby will mimic that you and hopefully won't see the bad you and if this baby does, hopefully those good parts outweigh and overshadow the bad.

oh, but he's perfect. my little mini me.
[little booties & hat c/o meghan, pleasantly plump knits]

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  1. He is absolutely adorable.
    Such a sweet and beautiful post.

    It means the world to me that you are this happy with this little man in your life.

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  2. Ok...so no picture that you have posted of him so far as been bad by any means, but I freaking LOVE the first one...Seriously...That image will run through my head the rest of the day now. I don't think any day looking at that could be a bad day. Haha...He is Hilarious! Thanks for sharing dear!

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    1. Hahaha I know =] that is his hungry face. He does that pursed lips thing and shakes his head back and forth. It's SO funny & adorable. Of course. But I also think everything he does is adorable. It's funny because I was looking at my ultra sound pictures and he was definitely making those faces in almost every ultrasound picture, too! Hahaha silly boy!

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    1. oh i just love all of your storys ya have!! :) can read mine on my blog i have it on instagram on my profile the web sit ya can comment on my blog also!!!?? :)

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    2. on you how do you picture on you blog on the side ans also edit it also and edit that picture like that!!!??? :) please till me

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    3. i would suggest googling it. HTML is confusing and there are seriously so many how-to websites that can give you step-by-step instructions on how to put pictures on the side.

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  4. Love the pictures and all the expressions..... he'll be a lively one ☺
    Dolly

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    1. He sure will be! I love watching his little personality blossom!

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  5. I love all the pictures, expecially the first one. He is just so darn cute!!!
    I have to say for the longest time I told my brother he was adopted also.....guess it must run in the family. :)

    Lisa

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    1. Thanks! That face. I'm so glad i caught it on camera! He is so fast at changing them!

      I'm so glad I'm not the only one. But you've seen us, he's totally adopted. ;] at least you and Eric look alike! Not that crazy blondie and I! Hahaha

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  6. It's funny because I alway thought I looked so much like my son–and I do, but now I see more of Sean in him and so much of my in this little baby girl! The other day I was looking at her feet and I realized we have the same exact feet... like exactly. Amazing. :)

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    1. hahaha isn't it funny the things you see in them? like his non-hitchhiker thumbs! like, who would notice that?! obviously us moms. who spend hours just staring at our babes! haha

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