Tuesday, October 30, 2012

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today i ate my feelings for lunch.

they were made of pesto chicken artichoke pizza and i loved them.

except for feelings don't go away after you pile a ton of delicious food on top of them. this i have learned.


i'm kind of very overwhelmed.
work + school + baby + house + work + school + baby + house.
 rinse and repeat.

i don't like not being in 100% control of my situations. i don't like this not knowing part. where i have way too many questions and not enough answers. i don't like that.


what i did learn today is that if you share your secrets with your husband he will not call you a freak. he will send you encouraging messages filled with scripture and love. this is new for me because like i said, i like to pack my feelings down down down and pile things on top of them. i don't like to feel my feelings and therefore i don't let other people feel my feelings. but evan is very good at feeling feelings and he is not very good at judging feelings so he did not judge me.

those things make for quality people. and there are not very many quality people in this world so i'm really very incredibly glad i snagged myself one.

"i made my home in your heart and your mind.
you laid your hands on my chest and
you pointed home.
i'll give you, all of me,
i'll make you mine.
if you'll take me, you'll make me,
your first in line."






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  1. I love this! Hopefully you feel better with telling Evan your secrets. And maybe you do that more so you don't have to pile so many things ontop of each other. I love those words in quotations! Are they a song?

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  2. I'm glad you have someone to share your feelings with. I completely understand the whole not wanting to share your feelings, I mean I feel mine but it's like I don't want to burden anyone else with my feelings. Yet the moment someone wants to share their feelings with me I am more than open to listen to them and not judge. No one should ever be judged by their emotions.

    I hope you are feeling better, dear friend.

    Also, I commented back to your question as to why I named my car Lilian. I'd copy and paste it her, but I'm just so tired and lazy so yeah hop on over to my blog. :)

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    1. Hi, I like you.

      Also, you get me. That is exactly it. Let's talk about you and not about me. Yup.

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