Tuesday, March 5, 2013

little baby

because of my preeclamptic condition i have to do a bajillion tests between now and the end to make sure that the baby is still growing properly and getting enough nutrients and doing all the things it should be doing while i lie around in bed and watch kourtney and khloe take miami because i heart trashy reality TV.

so today i laid on a bed for a twenty minute non-stress test to monitor the baby's heart and if i was having any contractions [which i maybe did? or it was just me laughing at how much the baby haaaaaated the monitors?] and i got to watch the baby's heart beat out at a speedy 150 bpm and listen to that watery heart beat while i looked at evan and was like yes. this. we are going to be parents.

it was one of those moments that hits you like a truck doing 80. it's a moment that isn't even new at all but the realization of it is just about enough to blind you. it's something we've said a million times since last july. it's something we talk about on a daily basis. it's a room i peek into every time i walk by it. it's little baby things like bottles and binkies and diapers and onesies scattered around my house. and sometimes it's still just brand new, this idea that i have a human being growing inside of me and evan is going to be a dad [the best] and my parents are going to be first-time grandparents and we're going to get zero hours of sleep and our lives are going to change in the very best way because we're having a baby.

we're having a baby.

and so i sat in a room with my family that has grown from just the two of us to almost three in just a few short months and my heart could have just burst with excitement and joy.


AND THEN. we had another ultrasound which we wouldn't have had without these other complications and i am so thankful we got to peek inside my belly one last time. the baby had it's little arms and legs measured and we saw those perfectly pouty baby lips and button nose and the hands! the hands that won't leave the side of the baby's face and that opened and closed, opened and closed like it was waving to us and i almost cried.

this ultrasound was insane because of how big the baby is. the entire baby does not fit on the screen anymore. and it looks like a baby. it has lips and eyes and fingers and toes! it has a foot jammed up in my rib cage and i got to see it all. the baby was wide awake and performed so well for all the tests we had today.

proud mama.



right in the middle: nose and lips and a hand. the tech also said, "let's measure his little head." so. maybe there's a little evan in there. three weeks and we'll see!

12 loves:

  1. Baby's first gold star!! I got so excited reading this that I had to keep reminding myself that I am not the one having a baby. I smiled the whole time.

    Is that the color of the nursery? I love it a lot a lot!

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    1. hahaha adorable. =]

      that's actually our dining room. the nursery is a blue-gray. i'll post pictures soon!

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  2. Ah - huh - I'm going to win again - I knew it would be a boy - sorry Lisa and Dani☺ Somethings you just know!! And Larissa, you take good care of you, baby and that dear husband of yours too.
    Love ya girl,
    Dolly

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    1. love you!

      and this little family rivalry!

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  3. Yay for listening to that sweet little heart beat :) What a great and scary feeling when it hits you that baby will be here soon and you will be parents. I do enjoy that you have more time to blog now! Keep resting and taking care of yourself. I'm sure thats a little tough if you are in any part of the "nesting" stage, though!

    P.S. Still on Team Girl!

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    1. i haven't really hit the nesting stage that everyone talks about. i see things that could be done, like sweeping my floors and i'm like meh. let the dog hair have another day. i just want to veg. which is what i'm supposed to be doing, so i guess that's good.

      it's kind of terrifying when you realize the baby could come any day. especially now that i'm preeclamptic, like HELLO THERE COULD BE A BABY TOMORROW! yikes. yikes!!!

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  4. This post made me tear up....

    I am so, so excited for you two. You both are going to be such amazing, loving parents.

    <3

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    1. you are the best. ever. your comment totally made my life. thank you sweetest friend! <3

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  5. Larissa! You're almost there, lady! I've missed you and I'm glad that things are going well for you, Evan and your little one... I'm so excited to watch the three of you grow :)

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    1. GIRLFRIEND. where have you been all my life?!

      i miss the shit outta you.

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  6. Sorry Aunt Dolly, but I am still with Team Girl!!

    Glad to hear that you and the baby are doing okay. Rest, relax and before you and Evan know it "she" will be here...the count down has begun!!

    Lisa

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    1. SHE will be soon! someone asked me how many days i had left the other day and i spit water out of my nose. DAYS?! when did we stop counting months?! who is in charge of how fast time moves and where can i get it to slow down?

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