i'm not going to lie, i'm excited. i hate snow, but i'm ready for it. i want clean air and cooler weather and boots and scarves and hot drinks and the weather to actually act like fall and not just a cooler summer.
but it feels like fall at my parents house. and my mema's house next door with the glowing tree that i would always climb as a little girl. just the tips of the branches fading into this golden yellow so that i couldn't tell if it was sunshine or leaves. and as i was standing there admiring this giant tree that holds thousands of memories of me climbing and jumping and jumping and climbing, a gust of wind came up and blew hundreds of leaves off the tree in a rainstorm of leaves that cascaded down with the wind and it was the most fall i've ever felt.
and it was the best moment i've had in a while, after two hectic weeks and an almost trip to the ER this weekend and anxiety levels that are through the roof and too much alone time, there was just something about those leaves and the wind and something as simple as that to ground me and bring me back to reality from every stupid little stress. i move too fast to enjoy anything. and i think it's high time i slow down and relish this life and these blessings and all the pretty fall around me.
also evan has done two of the nicest things for me today: 1) made himself gross eggs for breakfast and lit a candle so i would not have to gag as i was leaving; and 2) shut the door while he brushes his teeth. some pregnant women have really high smell powers, i have really intense hearing powers and the sound of teeth brushing makes me want to punch.
also my dear friends got engaged last night and i could not be more excited for them! i'm taking their engagements in a few weeks AND she asked me to be a bridesmaid and i could just pee my pants. my life is hectic and stressful and i hate my grad professor but seriously? i love my friends. you know who you are and i love you.
Funny that you mention that you're ready for it to snow. I was thinking last night that I wouldn't mind if it snowed overnight and into the morning and then it could stop, warm up and melt.
ReplyDeleteExactly. Probably once I spend a week in the cold and slush ill be ready for warmer weather again. But you know, a change once in a while is good.
Deleteaw. what a sweetheart--- I loved when Matt would remember to spray febreeze or turn the candle warmer on! I hope your smeller thing goes away, I know mine didn't last past week 17ish... and I've been fine, well maybe the word Better is more exact, about smells.
ReplyDeleteand sorry to hear about your anxiety and temperatures :( I hope you can relax, with SNOW?! soon :) I agree, I don't love snow, but it would be nice to have some clear air!
aww! evan better read that and know what is expected of him from now on! haha i'm doing better with eggs now. evan had some at brunch the other day and i didn't barf. so that's looking up, right? hahaha
Deletethe snow came and went and lasted for like 3 minutes. it was nice to curl up in bed with books and tea and a zillion blankets while the rest of the world was freezing. but now it's warming up (40's, warm? ha!) and I CAN BREATHE AGAIN!
And I feel like a jerk for taking this long to see this post....
ReplyDeleteIt does not surprise me at all that you have heightened hearing...
I mean I can't even imagine what will happen when someone is coughing in annoying way. If I were you and that happened to me I'd most likely go beserk.
I'm glad you are going to slow down a little bit and just destress.
I hope you enjoyed the snow! I'm jealous!
We've just had rain every night.
shush girl, shut your lips! ;]
Deletedude, there were some little girls SCREAMING at the park tonight. i'm not talking like playful screams of tag, you're it! i'm talking like blood curdling screams constantly. I LOST MY SHIT. and the kids in the alley who live behind us who like to scream and yell. i told evan, "i know that this is supposed to be a joyful noise but I CAN'T STAND IT." whoops.
do you ever get snow in FL? maybe in the top parts? that would be craceee! haha we got some rain last night for hours and hours and it was the best to fall asleep to. so thankful for this wet fall we're having!
The tree's here in Northern VA (DC area) have this beautiful golden outline. Just yesterday I was holding Judah and looking up pointing to the trees. It was windy and all these golden leaves started falling on it. Judah started laughing and both Scott and I held out our hands and at the same time (to Judahs amusement) we caught leaves! I've been trying my whole life to catch a falling leaf and I finally did while holding my sweet son :-)
ReplyDeleteI hope your feeling better. When I was pregnant the smell of watermelon made me gag and Scott LOVES watermelon but I swore when ever he bought it and cut it up that the watermelon smell would seep into the countertops ;-)
it's so pretty! i can't believe i've never noticed it before! DC in the spring and fall would seriously be the prettiest place on planet earth i think! i was there for 1 day last october and we raced through the mall and all i wanted to do was look at the trees but my group rushed me through all the monuments instead. hahaha
Deletethat story is just adorable! i'm taking engagements this weekend and i saw the cutest one of leaves fall around the couple. so i'm going to make my husband climb in a tree and shake the leaves around them. fall is just the best!
i can't believe watermelon made you gag! that's crazy! i love watermelon but i guess i haven't had any since mid-summer when i was not very pregnant. hahaha
oh god that sounds just like chicago. one moment we were all like yay! tights weather! and then the next we were like no! ski mask weather! it's gonna be brutal. but i know what you mean, i do like the crispness and coziness the cold brings :)
ReplyDeletetights to ski masks?! too much! hahaha i'd like a few more weeks of tights weather before i have to pull my parka and snow boots out!
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