Wednesday, August 8, 2012

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it's something to be married to your best friend. to wake up to that face every morning and fall asleep next to it every night. that face that knows you inside and out, knows your mistakes and embarrassments and failures and loves you even more. that face loves the person i was at 18, brave and stupid. when i was going to tattoo shops alone and had my very own rock i would climb when i needed to be alone. when i was smoking cigars because i could and sneaking around those pesky "no trespassing" signs. who loves the person who left to "find herself" about 80 times. even though that meant being okay with me hanging out with guys who were no good for me and drinking too much jager and wine, but not together. who gave me his lap to curl up on after a thee worst dinner i've ever made and thee most pitiful attempt of me trying to be worth it while the spill canvas serenaded us and i played "self conclusion" for hours and hours. who loves the girl who has mostly only jealous bones in her body and that translates to a lot of time spent just the two of us because sometimes those jealous bones just don't like people. it's something to be loved by a person who had the choice to love anyone in the world. who had the choice to take you or leave you. who had the choice to go and not look back. it's something to be loved by the person who chose you, who took you, who left but looked back. it's something to know each other for seven years. to be best friends first and build a relationship off that and to know how fiercely i could love and how angry i could become before any of that love or anger were his to claim. it's something to have this semi-brand new relationship that feels old and new without being stuffy or awkward. it's familiar and exciting. it's trust and adventure. it's safe and risk. it's something to be with someone and watch them grow and evolve and adapt and change and be able to grow and evolve and adapt and change with them so that you move forward, inward, into. one, not two. it's something to feel complete with the person your heart has chosen to love. to be satisfied and whole and undivided. it's something, that out of these 6 point something billion people in this world, i've found my person.


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  1. You are the SWEETEST SAP EVERRRR! I love this..I love to hear your love gush and rush out of your fingertips. I'm so happy you love and are so loved in return! You deserve it!

    xoxox
    Janette
    http://janettethejongleur.blogspot.com/

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    1. I am pretty sappy, I know. =] thank you friend.

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  2. this was so inspiring to read, and it makes me so hopeful ♥
    makes me feel sure that theres a person somewhere out there, who will find all my ups and downs and inside-outs beautiful.
    thanks you

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    1. Yes, girl, you will! Be patient and don't search and you'll find love when you least expect it. Xo

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  3. This is beautiful!! I am thankful every. single. day. that I've found my person, too. Not everyone can say the same & there is no better feeling in the world than knowing you are loved for every bit of who you are, the good, the bad, the ugly. :) You guys are precious!

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    1. Yes! You get it. So glad you have your person as well. Love is sweet.

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  4. this literally just made me SO happy! Thank you for sharing this.... it was absolutely beautiful.

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  5. Beautiful. Just love it. Love the descriptions of you--you little rebel! ;]--and your partner in crime. "Beautiful" is just about the only word for it. Totally acceptance, unrelenting companionship, they're such gifts :] Beautiful.

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    1. Hahaha I was rebellious! Bad! Haha

      I love that, the "total acceptance and unrelenting companionship." that's so beautiful.

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  6. Your love is so beautiful lady! I never tire of hearing more of your story. So sweet! Never let go of your person!!! :)

    "it's something to be loved by a person who had the choice to love anyone in the world."
    most beautiful thing ever!

    It's also my opinion that you should make that into artwork for your home. Like yesterday. ;)

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    1. Thank you friend. I should make this into artwork! Good idea, lady!

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    2. Thanks! I just think those words are so beautiful!

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  7. What an amazing post.
    Your words are perfectly constructed.
    They made me cry and understand all of it. I can relate to those words.

    Thank you for posting this.

    And I'm so happy you and Evan have one another.

    <3

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